This is what the Lord said to Abraham when He questions God's plan for His life. God told Abraham his seed would be as much as the stars in the sky, but Abraham got impatient as he and his wife grew older. In my own human mind, I feel like I would be questioning God's plan if I were Abraham or Sarah. Yet God said, "Is there anything to hard for me?" Of course not. We all know the story of Isaac, then Jacob and how the line continued right into the birth of our Savior.
Sadly, man just never seems to learn total faith in God. Sarah tried to help God out by providing Hagar to bear Ishmael with Abraham. This plan backfired since it was not God's fan. As silly as it sounds not to have total trust in God, I must say I have been feeling like Abraham lately.
This summer I have yet to find a job. I graduated 2 months ago, and all opportunities seemed bleak. There seemed to be job offers enough, but I never seemed to fit the job qualifications. I kept telling myself that God had something better, and my mom told me the same. However, as time passed, I began to feel like a bum. People constantly ask what I am doing with myself, but of course my answer is the same. Basically nothing. I was beginning to give up on the job hunt all together, just waiting for something to come along.
To add insult to injury, I was beginning to see other dreams pass before my eyes. No job, means no car since I have no income to support myself. Student loans draw nearer, and I have other dreams that began to seem like a bleak reality. A few nights ago, I reached my breaking point and had a good cry. I have discovered writing my feelings out helps me rationalize better. As I wrote, I felt the need to pray to my Father. I asked Him what was the point of 4 years of studying elementary education when I couldn't even get a minimum wage part time job much less a teaching job. As I poured out my heart and looked at my written feelings, I realized I had not been truly giving my burden to the Lord who promised to care for me.
Is there anything too hard for me?
I started a new day feeling refreshed and filled of hope. I reset my dreams and expectations to be within the will of the Lord and waiting for His timing. I also discovered new job opportunities I didn't realize existed. To make along story short, in half a week, I have a job offer, a job interview today and one tomorrow. One of these opportunities is a teaching opportunity as well. Now instead of wishing I had a job, I now wish I knew which one to pick. I don't know what God has for me, but I do know it will be awesome whatever it is. No, Lord, there is nothing to hard for you.
To Him be all the glory and praise!
Monday, July 2, 2012
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Swaying to the Rhythm of Life
I can hardly believe that I am nearing the 2 month mark since my college graduation. One of the reason it is hard to believe attributes to the fact I am still job hunting. The Lord is teaching me an awful lot about patience this summer. Recently I have found more peace. I am so thankful for my support system He has surrounded me with. From family, friends and my church family, I have been adjusting to the present. For a while I wanted to be in control, but I am working at surrendering my will. Through this, I am back to anticipating the unknown as well as enjoying the rest for the time being. Once the Lord does make the way clear, I am sure I will not have many quiet moments like these left. I recently found out about a teaching opportunity for which I have applied. I am praying to see if this little surprise offer will pan out. If not, I will just keep trusting and searching.
I recently discovered how blessed I am. On the way home from an outing with friends, I saw a young man on a street corner asking for food and work. Sometimes I am skeptical of beggars on the street, but at the same time, I know many are truly in need. Perhaps I have to wait for a job, but I am far from needy. I have already mentioned my incredible support system. I am also able to visit with friends, attend Bible studies and church, and I already have made many fun summer memories. This is even with cutting back on money spending adventures. I have not struggled with where my next meal is coming from or where I will sleep at night.
Shame on me for complaining because I truly am blessed. I am trying to take each day as it comes and seize each opportunity. I am also trying my hand at things that I never thought I would do. I have been trying to be more outgoing in groups of people I do not know well yet. I even went to a swing dancing club to learn how. I know a lot more exciting opportunities will come my way if I only open my heart to what God has for me. He has always been faithful to me and never led me astray once. So cheers to whatever is next as I sway to the rhythm of life!
I recently discovered how blessed I am. On the way home from an outing with friends, I saw a young man on a street corner asking for food and work. Sometimes I am skeptical of beggars on the street, but at the same time, I know many are truly in need. Perhaps I have to wait for a job, but I am far from needy. I have already mentioned my incredible support system. I am also able to visit with friends, attend Bible studies and church, and I already have made many fun summer memories. This is even with cutting back on money spending adventures. I have not struggled with where my next meal is coming from or where I will sleep at night.
Shame on me for complaining because I truly am blessed. I am trying to take each day as it comes and seize each opportunity. I am also trying my hand at things that I never thought I would do. I have been trying to be more outgoing in groups of people I do not know well yet. I even went to a swing dancing club to learn how. I know a lot more exciting opportunities will come my way if I only open my heart to what God has for me. He has always been faithful to me and never led me astray once. So cheers to whatever is next as I sway to the rhythm of life!
Friday, May 25, 2012
Growing Beautifully
I was trying to decide what I wanted to write about. I have a lot on my mind, but nothing particularly inspiring came to mind. Then I remembered the title I came up with for my blog. Invitation to grow beautifully....this is what God has invited me to do.
Lately, my family and the neighbors around have been planting flowers for the summer. It sure is a messy task. Wheelbarrows and tools are scattered over the yard. Hands and feed are covered in mud and dirt. Weeds have been pulled, but after it is all said and done, beautiful plants begin to grow. The care does not stop there though. Each night, my mom must go out and water the plants. Weeds will still continue to grow, so we will continue to pull weeds. Next summer, the whole process will begin again. I guess life is a little like this.
I have graduated from college, and after some messy reworking, I have been planted back here at home. Right now the weeds of doubt and uncertainty are beginning to grow. I feel left behind in some areas of life and depressed that I am still job hunting. The weeds of depression, self-pity, self-reliance, and discontentment threaten to choke the beautiful flower God wants me to be.
However, it does not have to be that way. Each day I am showered with encouragement from family and friends who let me know I am loved and supported. The warm light of God's love reassures me that I am never alone. All of this uncertainty for the future is scary, but at the end of the day, God is in control. I still do not know what is next for me, but I can still grow beautifully. It may be messy, but what an awesome adventure it is. I have already made many memories I shall treasure forever this summer. I do not need to wallow in self doubt and pity. Rather I will drink in the waters of encouragement and soak up the light of love from my Heavenly Father.
Lately, my family and the neighbors around have been planting flowers for the summer. It sure is a messy task. Wheelbarrows and tools are scattered over the yard. Hands and feed are covered in mud and dirt. Weeds have been pulled, but after it is all said and done, beautiful plants begin to grow. The care does not stop there though. Each night, my mom must go out and water the plants. Weeds will still continue to grow, so we will continue to pull weeds. Next summer, the whole process will begin again. I guess life is a little like this.
I have graduated from college, and after some messy reworking, I have been planted back here at home. Right now the weeds of doubt and uncertainty are beginning to grow. I feel left behind in some areas of life and depressed that I am still job hunting. The weeds of depression, self-pity, self-reliance, and discontentment threaten to choke the beautiful flower God wants me to be.
However, it does not have to be that way. Each day I am showered with encouragement from family and friends who let me know I am loved and supported. The warm light of God's love reassures me that I am never alone. All of this uncertainty for the future is scary, but at the end of the day, God is in control. I still do not know what is next for me, but I can still grow beautifully. It may be messy, but what an awesome adventure it is. I have already made many memories I shall treasure forever this summer. I do not need to wallow in self doubt and pity. Rather I will drink in the waters of encouragement and soak up the light of love from my Heavenly Father.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Time Capsule
This last semester at college was a pretty amazing experience, and I know I will never forget the incredible student teaching experience as I long as I live. However, I did go through some personal experiences during this time that provided bumps in the road. I have come to realize that life is unpredictable, but whether it be a smooth, bumpy or combination of the two kind of ride....life is beautiful.
I celebrated my birthday in March and 2 days later, my grandfather died. My family has been expecting it for some time, but I still grieved nonetheless. My parents had come to see me the weekend before, and brought home many of my things. About 2 weeks later, my wonderful cousin came and got me so I could be home for the funeral. At this point, I brought home more things. I was only home for about a day. Here I stood in my bedroom full of the few things I brought home and knowing I had a lot more coming back.
I returned to school and finished up my semester. (Graduation was a blast by the way!) Anyway, I almost felt nauseated about all I was bringing home to fit in my room. I knew I had a major clean up project ahead of me. I dove right in and began filling up boxes for Goodwill and trash bags for the trash. I can only pray this experience has forever cured me of my hoarding problem I obviously suffered from when I was younger. Now I have a decently organized room that has been rearranged for the first time ever. I love it!
Many of the things I came across brought back all sorts of memories. Happy, sad, painful, exciting and everything in between. One particular find was a journal. I was flipping through the pages of poems, song lyrics and other random things I had written in it. Then I found this journal entry I wrote about the last five years of my life. At that time I had been reflecting on the journey God brought me through after my first school closed. For a long time it haunted my thoughts. I believe this entry began the time when I started letting go of the past, and just started being thankful for the present and looking forward to the future. The most ironic thing about this entry was that it was written almost exactly 5 years ago from this date. I soon found myself writing about the past 5 years, so who knows, maybe this will become a tradition. Anyway, though many things have changed, I am so thankful for all the blessings God has given me. He is my constant in this ever changing world.
I don't know what is next for me, but I am so excited about the possibilities. I kept of few reminders of the past, but I am still thankful for the present and so looking forward to the future. Life just keeps getting better with the hand of God leading me.
I celebrated my birthday in March and 2 days later, my grandfather died. My family has been expecting it for some time, but I still grieved nonetheless. My parents had come to see me the weekend before, and brought home many of my things. About 2 weeks later, my wonderful cousin came and got me so I could be home for the funeral. At this point, I brought home more things. I was only home for about a day. Here I stood in my bedroom full of the few things I brought home and knowing I had a lot more coming back.
I returned to school and finished up my semester. (Graduation was a blast by the way!) Anyway, I almost felt nauseated about all I was bringing home to fit in my room. I knew I had a major clean up project ahead of me. I dove right in and began filling up boxes for Goodwill and trash bags for the trash. I can only pray this experience has forever cured me of my hoarding problem I obviously suffered from when I was younger. Now I have a decently organized room that has been rearranged for the first time ever. I love it!
Many of the things I came across brought back all sorts of memories. Happy, sad, painful, exciting and everything in between. One particular find was a journal. I was flipping through the pages of poems, song lyrics and other random things I had written in it. Then I found this journal entry I wrote about the last five years of my life. At that time I had been reflecting on the journey God brought me through after my first school closed. For a long time it haunted my thoughts. I believe this entry began the time when I started letting go of the past, and just started being thankful for the present and looking forward to the future. The most ironic thing about this entry was that it was written almost exactly 5 years ago from this date. I soon found myself writing about the past 5 years, so who knows, maybe this will become a tradition. Anyway, though many things have changed, I am so thankful for all the blessings God has given me. He is my constant in this ever changing world.
I don't know what is next for me, but I am so excited about the possibilities. I kept of few reminders of the past, but I am still thankful for the present and so looking forward to the future. Life just keeps getting better with the hand of God leading me.
Friday, April 27, 2012
And Thus It Was....
"And thus it was: the fourth age of Middle-Earth began; and the Fellowship of the Ring, though eternally bound by friendship and love, was ended."
~Frodo Baggins
Granted, I may not living in the fourth age of Middle-Earth, and I am certainly not bound to the fellowship of the ring, but a new journey of life is beginning, and the love I have gained for my students will be eternal. Sadly though, it has ended.
I began this adventure sometime back in January, and I was a mess. My good friend, Sarah, was making a major life change of her own by going away to college. We were both quite nervous about these changes, but Sarah said, "Just think of it as our own adventures." For medieval legend loving girls like ourselves, this thought gave me some motivation to enjoy this phase.
I soon found myself in a new place to live faced with 50 eyes ready for learning. The new adventure began, but I absolutely loved it. You can see from previous posts that I was quite content where I was. I taught 5th grade, and they never really seemed lovey dovey. I was okay with that though and just worked hard to be a good teacher. Yesterday was my last day, and my heart aches for leaving them behind. The notes they wrote me allowed me to see what they all thought of me. I never knew I could enjoy this adventure so much, but I did. I was more excited to find out that my students loved it as much as I did. I still have much to learn to be a good teacher, but the short time I experienced was awesome.
I pray that I will remember how I felt through this experience the next time a grand adventure comes along. I do not know what it is next in life for me, but I crave the mystery. I feel like a brand new adventure is right around the corner. I can't help but think that it too will be thrilling.
Today, I am still a little sad because the last adventure is over, but may it be said....
"And thus it was: the post college life of Meghan began; and the 5th grade student teaching experience though eternally bound by friendship and love, was ended."
(Corny, I know, but true just the same. ;))
~Frodo Baggins
Granted, I may not living in the fourth age of Middle-Earth, and I am certainly not bound to the fellowship of the ring, but a new journey of life is beginning, and the love I have gained for my students will be eternal. Sadly though, it has ended.
I began this adventure sometime back in January, and I was a mess. My good friend, Sarah, was making a major life change of her own by going away to college. We were both quite nervous about these changes, but Sarah said, "Just think of it as our own adventures." For medieval legend loving girls like ourselves, this thought gave me some motivation to enjoy this phase.
I soon found myself in a new place to live faced with 50 eyes ready for learning. The new adventure began, but I absolutely loved it. You can see from previous posts that I was quite content where I was. I taught 5th grade, and they never really seemed lovey dovey. I was okay with that though and just worked hard to be a good teacher. Yesterday was my last day, and my heart aches for leaving them behind. The notes they wrote me allowed me to see what they all thought of me. I never knew I could enjoy this adventure so much, but I did. I was more excited to find out that my students loved it as much as I did. I still have much to learn to be a good teacher, but the short time I experienced was awesome.
I pray that I will remember how I felt through this experience the next time a grand adventure comes along. I do not know what it is next in life for me, but I crave the mystery. I feel like a brand new adventure is right around the corner. I can't help but think that it too will be thrilling.
Today, I am still a little sad because the last adventure is over, but may it be said....
"And thus it was: the post college life of Meghan began; and the 5th grade student teaching experience though eternally bound by friendship and love, was ended."
(Corny, I know, but true just the same. ;))
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Independent Yet Not Alone
It has been some time since I posted last. I wouldn't say I have been too busy to post, but I just have not been inspired to write about the wonderful things happening in my life. Student teaching continues to be a blessing and one of the best experiences of my life. I love my students and will miss them dearly when I leave next month. However, I am starting to itch for the next chapter of life. God has been so good to me, and I look forward to what He is in store for me next.
While student teaching has been quite an adventure, I have been thinking a lot about the way God knows just what I need when I need it. The day I was given my student teaching assignment was exciting to me. The Lord not only provided a position, but He placed me where I would have a proper living arrangement as well as transportation. I have already blogged about loving my independence. It truly is a joy to cook for myself, keep the place clean, and just go about my business in my own little loft. Lately I have been alone more often in the loft, but it allows me to get several things on the to do list done. I have even had days when I could shopping by myself and just take care of my needs. All of this has taught me a lot about myself and I am so thankful for the experience.
It is true that independence is wonderful, but I am by no means a loner. God knows just when to put the people I need into my life. This past weekend is a perfect example. I did not have the best day at school on Friday, so my only saving grace was knowing my parents were arriving for a visit. This past weekend with them has been much needed and so refreshing. At first, I wanted them to come over spring break, but it worked out better for them to come for my birthday weekend. I am glad God knows what I need instead of giving me what I want. I have also been experiencing some family health crises of sorts. It kills me not to be there with my family when these things happen, but thanks to technology, I can stay informed and still be an encouragement to my loved ones.
The network of people I have been surrounded by have been so vital to my enjoyment here. The support of my church family down here, fellow teachers and host family provide me encouragement. Some days are rough, but with so many people in my corner, I rarely feel like I have a bad day. I also enjoy talking to good friends back at home or at school who encourage me and I them. God has brought me so many blessings simply by where He has placed me. I just feel like I needed to share that. Independence is a wonderful thing, but without the body of Christ, there would be little joy in life!
While student teaching has been quite an adventure, I have been thinking a lot about the way God knows just what I need when I need it. The day I was given my student teaching assignment was exciting to me. The Lord not only provided a position, but He placed me where I would have a proper living arrangement as well as transportation. I have already blogged about loving my independence. It truly is a joy to cook for myself, keep the place clean, and just go about my business in my own little loft. Lately I have been alone more often in the loft, but it allows me to get several things on the to do list done. I have even had days when I could shopping by myself and just take care of my needs. All of this has taught me a lot about myself and I am so thankful for the experience.
It is true that independence is wonderful, but I am by no means a loner. God knows just when to put the people I need into my life. This past weekend is a perfect example. I did not have the best day at school on Friday, so my only saving grace was knowing my parents were arriving for a visit. This past weekend with them has been much needed and so refreshing. At first, I wanted them to come over spring break, but it worked out better for them to come for my birthday weekend. I am glad God knows what I need instead of giving me what I want. I have also been experiencing some family health crises of sorts. It kills me not to be there with my family when these things happen, but thanks to technology, I can stay informed and still be an encouragement to my loved ones.
The network of people I have been surrounded by have been so vital to my enjoyment here. The support of my church family down here, fellow teachers and host family provide me encouragement. Some days are rough, but with so many people in my corner, I rarely feel like I have a bad day. I also enjoy talking to good friends back at home or at school who encourage me and I them. God has brought me so many blessings simply by where He has placed me. I just feel like I needed to share that. Independence is a wonderful thing, but without the body of Christ, there would be little joy in life!
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Week 1
I don't know if I will be able to update every week, but I thought I would at least give one update while I still can. Student teaching has been a wonderful chapter in my life. I honestly feel like this is Life 101 which I must say has been my favorite class in college so far. I always wished my school offered an apartment option like other universities, and this week it hit me that my wish came true.
So about one week ago, my friend, Ashley, and I arrived at my new temporary home. At first the reality hit me like a ton of bricks, and I felt anxious and little lonely in a new place. After settling into my loft and talking with my host family, I quickly began to feel right at home. The loft is awesome! I have a bedroom, bathroom, kitchen and living room. I also enjoy being able to pop in on the family when I need to, and Ashley lives nearby. She comes over often, so we can encourage each other. It has also been wonderful catching up with Olivia. She is part of my host family and we used to go to college together.
The school I am teaching at is really nice. The faculty are friendly, and I like my students. I am really looking forward to having the opportunity to teach. Some of the work appears to be overwhelming, but I am taking it a day at a time. My host teacher is helpful, so I think the experience will be a good one.
Honestly my new routine feels more familiar than college ever did. I get up around the same time I did in high school. I make my breakfast and watch the Today show in the morning. I love being able to keep up with the news again. After school, I do my paperwork and eventually make dinner. I usually watch tv and get my lunch ready for the next day. I am trying not to be a tv junkie, but a little familiar noise just makes the place feel more homely. I really feel like an adult now that I make most of my own decisions and live more independently. I am still surrounded by godly people who have helped me feel like I am at home. Among everything, I have learned some about flexibility and the surprises life throws at you, but overall it is awesome. I am guessing this experience will fly by, but I am enjoying it for the time being. Well back to the Super Bowl. Though I am not exactly happy with the turn out, at least the Steelers did not make it again this year. Also the Ryan Lochte Olympic commercial reminds me that the London 12 is upon us, so what is not to love?
So about one week ago, my friend, Ashley, and I arrived at my new temporary home. At first the reality hit me like a ton of bricks, and I felt anxious and little lonely in a new place. After settling into my loft and talking with my host family, I quickly began to feel right at home. The loft is awesome! I have a bedroom, bathroom, kitchen and living room. I also enjoy being able to pop in on the family when I need to, and Ashley lives nearby. She comes over often, so we can encourage each other. It has also been wonderful catching up with Olivia. She is part of my host family and we used to go to college together.
The school I am teaching at is really nice. The faculty are friendly, and I like my students. I am really looking forward to having the opportunity to teach. Some of the work appears to be overwhelming, but I am taking it a day at a time. My host teacher is helpful, so I think the experience will be a good one.
Honestly my new routine feels more familiar than college ever did. I get up around the same time I did in high school. I make my breakfast and watch the Today show in the morning. I love being able to keep up with the news again. After school, I do my paperwork and eventually make dinner. I usually watch tv and get my lunch ready for the next day. I am trying not to be a tv junkie, but a little familiar noise just makes the place feel more homely. I really feel like an adult now that I make most of my own decisions and live more independently. I am still surrounded by godly people who have helped me feel like I am at home. Among everything, I have learned some about flexibility and the surprises life throws at you, but overall it is awesome. I am guessing this experience will fly by, but I am enjoying it for the time being. Well back to the Super Bowl. Though I am not exactly happy with the turn out, at least the Steelers did not make it again this year. Also the Ryan Lochte Olympic commercial reminds me that the London 12 is upon us, so what is not to love?
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